tears and past(?)

my thought may be fast but, my mind is faster.... it always is able to erase all traces of those past memory every time I try to recall them... something it is not that I want to recall..







It just... got triggered somehow... I don't know what trigger it... but it just happens...




and I will 'wake up' or snap out of my thought and end up in a blank, not remembering what just happen 5min ago, or what happen before I blank out..


But u know.... there r always defects and failure... sometime my mind just could not clear it fast enough and I will just end up finding myself in deep fear and started crying non-stop.... of cause I will that later snap out of it naturally and not remember what happen or what I was doing before I cried...-.-


* ohh and ya its like stoning but the diff is i accidently will fall into it (even if i m not bored and it happen even when i m trying super hard to pay attention!! itsjust happen anytime anywhere..) and i will feel a stab of fear...*

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